Thursday, April 3, 2008 ' 13:56
i'm in a serious state of confusion right now. i don't know what is freaking wrong with me. i just feel so fucked up. like everything is not right. i'm supposed to go for the trial party last tuesday but sandy pushed in forward to wednesday. she said people are on holiday. yeah, whatever. but in the end, the day i've been waiting for these 2 weeks. disappeared just like that. it's entirely my fault. i decided not to go. i don't know why. people always say, follow your heart. and that's just what i did. and now i'm full of regrets. i feel so bad doing this to sandy. i believe in karma. and i'm sure i'll get my retribution in one way or the other. i'm just so disappointed in myself that this had to happen. i waited for this chance and when it did came, i just blew it off. okay, enough said. i'm not gonna bring this up again and rub salt to my own wound. anyways, i had my first ever meal at swensen's last monday. my darling best friend's treat. so thoughtful of her. love her lots. then on tuesday, accompanied her shopping. from heeren to far east plaza then bugis. it's very exhausting but i'm fine. she bought for me perfume. thanks again darling. lunch was on raven. yummy chicken from kfc. then dinner with hendri at lerk thai. from there, straight home. we had so much fun together. i'm really happy i found her as my best friend. (: so then again, i'm having my second interview at starbucks tomorrow. yup, coffee hater making coffee. lol. i had my first interview last monday. went well. the boss new outlet is at liang court, clarke quay. so i might be working there. well maybe this whole incident is a blessing in disguise. *winks*
