Monday, October 13, 2008 ' 14:44
hey yo! i'm so glad that today is my day off from work. i'm so worn- out. idk if i should say yesterday was a terrible day at work cos i've experienced horrible days like a million times. haha. i just felt so tired yesterday, both physically and mentally. physically maybe cos i didn't get proper and sufficient rest. mentally maybe cos of just how life is for me. i get really sick of these people, esp on weekends. they just won't fuck off. there's bound to be misunderstandings. sometimes i get so tired that i just feel like giving up. but i don't wanna act on impulse like how i used to. it's not easy. what am i? something cum something plus another thing? i don't mind getting all the shitty stuff as long as i'm being appreciated. i guess i'm far from the standard to be appreciated. idk why am i suddenly so frustrated right now. maybe i've been bottling it up for too long. and one more thing apart from not being appreciated, i don't think people trust me. (not all but some.) why can't you let certain things go and give me and yourself a chance. it's unfair for me and also you. is it so hard to trust someone? i know it's not easy but it doesn't kill to try isn't it. my own burdens are already killing me and now i've to even think of my family's burden. seriously mum, what the fuck were you thinking? can you spare a thought for my feelings? do you know it hurt me so much? sometimes i hate you so much and just feel like running away. just run with no destination in mind. i'm so sick and tired of taking care of peoples' feelings but mine is not even thought of.
