Wednesday, October 29, 2008 ' 16:33
hey yo. i'm feeling kinda happy plus excited but i seriously got no idea what about. haha. initially maybe excited about the whole boxing thing on friday but no longer am cos i don't think i can go. now excited and can't wait for halloween i guess. can't wait to see the adorable kids all dressed up. i hope not all their costumes are cheesy. like fairies or angels. anyways, i was kinda tired at work earlier on. had a nap during my lunch break which makes me better. felt really energised after that. bestie's on half day today. she needs to attend the boxing briefing. will catch up with her later to buy stuff for the chalet over the weekend. maybe that's the reason i'm all excited. so yeah, there's this something that has been bothering me quite a lot lately. i really feel like i lost a sense of belonging. honestly, i missed my family. it seem as though i lost the love from my family. it's not that i hate my family or don't like living with them. it's just that whenever i do come back to visit them, i feel so out of place. like i don't belong there anymore. maybe it's just me but maybe that's just the way it is. it's breaking up really badly. first we had to move out, that's cos we planned to shift to a new place. then temporarily we had to stay elsewhere and even there we had to leave. it's so annoying. idk should i be sad or just angry at them for the lack of planning in life. now my family is at my aunt's place. i'm not sure till when are they gonna be there. i'm just hoping and praying that everything's gonna be just fine and be like how it used to. i'm not getting emotional or anything. i'm in a cheery mood today and i'm not gonna spoil it. chao.
