Wednesday, February 25, 2009 ' 17:55
it's me here yet again blabbing about my boring life. i must say countless things has happened to me over the period when bestie were not around. i honestly don't know where to start. my mind is still jumbled up about yesterday. so whatever i wanna say might be all over the place. i don't really care so long i get things out. right now, i'm not feeling sad or angry at all. i'm just annoyed over the fact that i've NEVER been appreciated. in YOUR eyes, i'm never right. up to this day, i'm pretty sure YOU still won't admit that YOU don't like me. everyone knows how bias YOU are. but of cos, which thief will admit their mistakes. wouldn't the prison be full all the time. haha. i still can't believe YOU are not over last thursday's incident. at the very end, YOU still say that i show absolutely no effort at all to talk to YOU? that's a fucking lie. i tried talking to YOU but the vibes i get from YOU is saying that i should take a step back. YOU give me the cold shoulder. YOU talk to someone else when i was just right in front of YOU. YOU told them things that YOU would normally tell me. why would i wanna disappoint myself by talking to YOU further. i decide things for myself. why would i wanna go ahead doing things that don't make me happy. days after that, YOU keep picking on me for the slightest mistake. i see it as an oppotunity for YOU since you-know-who is not around. i think if someone else would have did that same mistake, YOU wouldn't have blow as much as YOU did to me. WHY oh WHY?? i really wonder. it feels like i did a grave mistake to YOU in my previous. but then again, if i have a life before this, i wouldn't even wanna get close to a hypocrite. YOU always misjudged me. whatever that goes wrong, i'm ALWAYS the first person that you think of. it's so UNFAIR. i hate it so much. i've got no say at all. anything that i say, will never sound right to you. i know all these while YOU'RE just waiting for the right time. and now, aren't YOU just satisfied that i'm FINALLY out of YOUR sight. whatever happened yesterday could just be a blessing in disguise. i've always wanted to leave but couldn't bring myself to do it. HE'S probably up there helping me to get out of the misery. i must say i got the freedom. out of hypocrisy. but YOU definitely, have to change. every bit of YOU. YOU labelled others but perhaps due to that business, YOU forgot about yourself. sighs. i guess that's it. i feel much better. and by the way guys, don't you think three months is a long time?? i'm just stupid to stay on and being made used of. and to you skinny bitch, ( i'm not sure if bitch is the right word though. ) i lead my own life and i DATE whoever i want. it's none of your business. move on, you make yourself look so pathetic and worthless. is it cos no one wants you now that you're still here. waiting for an unfulfilled miracle?? fattest hope ever, it's NEVER NEVER gonna happen. so be sad and depressed all over again. you DESERVED it. serve you right. call me evil, you made me do this. by the way, i'm so sorry your EX-GIRLFRIEND wants me now. lol.
