Thursday, April 16, 2009 ' 20:51
i've decided. yes, i'm gonna pursue. be thick-skinned and go for it. someone advised me hell lot today. summarising what she said is, "you want it, go for it." at first i was really really confused of where i'm heading about this whole thing. i don't wanna go all the way only to realised it's a waste of time. but come to think of it, how am i suppose to know if i don't try right. like a line from coldplay's fix you, "but if you never try, you'll never know." how the hell can i push the negativity away from me though? i always think that i can't do it. or am i just too afraid to try. but one thing i know for certain is that i really like her alot. i really do. whether she's aware or not, that's secondary. well, what i can tell myself right now is just work hard and even harder. (: assholes who thinks i'm being immature thinking about this or whatever, so be it. how i'm feeling is important. cheers.
